Two Saturdays ago, I heard of Cory Aquino’s death and was rather surprised to find myself deeply affected. I was gripped by a feeling that was part sadness, part nostalgia, and part… something else. It took me a while to identify what that “something else” was, but eventually I recognized it for what it was — the faint, bittersweet remembrance of youthful hope.
Cory Aquino’s presidential campaign and the popular uprising that followed it 23 years ago probably means a lot of things to different people. But for me, it will always be the time that I fell in love, fatally and irrevocably, with the idea of what our country could be.
I suppose it was unavoidable that my impressionable 12-year old mind would become enamored with the excitement for change that so charged the air then. Cory’s candidacy at the time did not only represent something better than the status quo, i.e. an improvement from the Marcos regime, but was a beacon for the nation’s long pent-up enthusiasm for change. And when the EDSA uprising came and catapulted Cory to the presidency, despite the best (or perhaps worst) efforts of the forces supporting the old regime, it seemed the perfect affirmation of our faith in the boundless possibilities of such enthusiasm.
Of course, later, the disappointments would come. The massacre at Mendiola, the (re)institution of the total war policy, the unthinking assumption of illegitimate public debts – these and other decisions by “President Cory” would eventually dampen even the seemingly limitless enthusiasm of the campaign and at EDSA. The “Cory magic” would eventually fade in the face of harsh, unforgiving Philippine reality.
Still, having felt that wonder once, I never quite looked at that “reality” the same way. The most serious social problems were simply challenges that would inevitably be overcome, obstacles to be swept aside by sheer effort of will, by our indefatigable belief in ourselves and in the power of our collective enthusiasm. No matter how overwhelming our nation’s troubles seemed, the hope, no, the conviction, that that better community, that better country, that better world we craved, always remained within our grasp if we worked hard enough, if we trusted in ourselves and in our fellows enough, never faltered.
Half a decade after EDSA, when as an undergraduate at the University of the Philippines I marched against the Cory government’s plan to extend the Bases Agreement with the United States, it was, quite ironically, this selfsame conviction, born during the Cory campaign, that lay at the heart of my motivations.
The years, of course, eventually took their toll even on this remnant of hope that I took from EDSA. Though I forsook academic achievement and a mainstream career in favor of continued involvement in what can only be broadly called “the progressive movement” (in a vague, distant sort of tribute to something briefly glimpsed in 1986), disappointment, frustration, cynicism, and plain weariness ultimately reduced that fierce, vibrant hope into a dull throb of dissatisfaction. Enthusiasm for change gave way to anger with the status quo. It became more important to crush the oppressors than to build a future for the oppressed. Hope became hate.
Every so often, though, that dull ache of dissatisfaction would flare up, somewhat painfully, into a semblance of the old, lost optimism.
Two Saturdays ago was one such moment.
Cory Aquino’s death opened the way for a celebration of her life. And fairly or unfairly, it once again reemphasized for many, including myself, that 23 years ago, she symbolized the power of possibility. Her passing, and the outpouring of support and gratitude that emerged in response to it, helped me remember that at the core of our dissatisfaction with our current leaders, at the heart of our frustration with our country’s woes, is that belief, deeply buried though it may be, that we still can build a better world.
I would like to think that in the end, the social change so many of us crave will not be brought about by the jaded cynics, but by those who continue to hope, and to dream. Cory’s triumph in 1986 proved that those who hope can wage a successful struggle. Cory’s passing now reminds us that those who struggle must not neglect to hope.
Posted by Barry Gutierrez
Posted by Barry Gutierrez
Posted by Barry Gutierrez
An article I wrote on a recent Supreme Court decision and its implications on free speech in the workplace just came out on Newsbreak.
Last Friday, somewhat to my surprise and slightly against my initial inclinations, I found myself at the detention center in Camp Crame, visiting the detainees from the Manila Peninsula incident of the previous day. I had come to act as counsel in the inquest proceedings set for that evening, representing Dodong Nemenzo, the former UP President, and a man I personally held in the highest esteem, both for his ideas and his ideals.